*poof*

[TPFKA@W]

What can be said except I saw it, I read it and noted it was the ultimate sniff hump declaration of non-sniff humping behavior possible.

I think you are an annoying turd. Still in the spirit of the season, in the style of Snoopy vs. the Red Barron, Merry Christmas.

[TPFKA@W]

So to further explain this post this is what was on here last night then mysteriously disappeared. I happened to have screen capped it on my phone so I could read it better blown up. I mean Jesus, if you are going to have the balls to post stuff, have the balls to stand behind it.

[Joe Guy]

I didn't think there was much of a chance that you were going to respond to my post but I thought I'd try and see what happens and then gave up after a couple hours and deleted it.

There's not a lot written there to stand behind. I think I pretty much said what I meant, but just for the record, I don't really want my heart ripped out and made into sausage. I actually have a practical use for my heart. It gives me more energy than I would have without it but it sometimes get me into trouble.

Looking back, for a long long time I thought an apology to you wasn't necessary for two possible reasons:

1) You don't take anything I say very seriously so you would not accept it
2) You decided to take one thing I said very seriously and decided that I'm an asshole and not worth any effort to attempt to make things right

Last night I thought an apology for whatever it was that I said about a year and a half ago was probably a good thing and would at least make me feel better that I've let you know I never meant to hurt or insult you when I got carried away and (possibly) hurt you and (obviously) pissed you off...

Living through another Christmas and reliving past memories of the family that I no longer have got me to thinking that I should say what I mean sometimes rather than what I think would be funny. I'm not sure how to do that but I'll try it sometimes

I'm going to send this now because I'll probably re-read it and get the urge to delete it.

[wesw]

sending out a big hug to joe.... (serious comment)

[MajGenl.Meade]

I dunno @W. FWIW I think Joe is sincere. Props on the post, Joe. I do hope I'm not mistaken.

And I recognize this very well:

I should say what I mean sometimes rather than what I think would be funny.

[Guinevere]

Be authentic. Really - being true to yourself is one of the most important things there is is life.

[TPFKA@W]

I didn't think there was much of a chance that you were going to respond to my post but I thought I'd try and see what happens and then gave up after a couple hours and deleted it.

I am a 55 year old nurse. I work a lot and work long hours that people 20 years younger have trouble keeping up with. I get up at 3am most work days to hit the floor by 530am. I have an hour commute so do the math. At some point I have to sleep since it is one of those biologically imperative functions. There is also a 3 hour time difference between where I live and where you live. I read your post and went to bed. I didn't lose any sleep.

I don't really want my heart ripped out and made into sausage. I actually have a practical use for my heart. It gives me more energy than I would have without it but it sometimes get me into trouble.

While I doubt you are serious about this I will say anyway that if this is sincere you need to go get some help. Psychiatric help. I don't take anything on this board to heart. You could all be yak herders yanking my chain. What I really suspect is that you have a giant ego and it bugs the crap out of you to be ignored. Well maybe if you didn't act like such an annoying jackass you would not nave been put on ignore.

Looking back, for a long long time I thought an apology to you wasn't necessary for two possible reasons:

1) You don't take anything I say very seriously so you would not accept it
2) You decided to take one thing I said very seriously and decided that I'm an asshole and not worth any effort to attempt to make things right

Actually I just decided that you were a stalker who creeped the shit out of me and also a very annoying jackass. Ignore made it more comfortable to post here. Most of the time I can forget you exist which has worked fine for me.

Last night I thought an apology for whatever it was that I said about a year and a half ago was probably a good thing and would at least make me feel better that I've let you know I never meant to hurt or insult you when I got carried away and (possibly) hurt you and (obviously) pissed you off...

Well I hope it has been cathartic. I, unlike Meade, don't believe you are sincere, mainly because you are incapable of making any sort of serious attempt at "righting" things. Had you handled this privately and managed to make your amends without the twisted humor I might have mistaken it as sincere. But I didn't. So there we are. I have watched you for years Joe, you are an old man now and your behavior is extremely unlikely to change. I suggest that you deal with it by putting me on ignore. I think it will make a nice meal for your giant hungry ego. That way you can forget that I exist except for when someone quotes me. It's very calming not to have someone who bugs you simply cease to exist.

If it happens that you are sincere, sorry, but don't take it too seriously. I am sure you will marshal onward.

Living through another Christmas and reliving past memories of the family that I no longer have got me to thinking that I should say what I mean sometimes rather than what I think would be funny. I'm not sure how to do that but I'll try it sometimes

Sorry for your loss, Christmas does bring that sort of loneliness home to roost. I suggest that you go to a hospital and volunteer or a nursing home and help out. There is no one lonelier than those folks this time of year.