After I hurt my back and spent a week lying in bed, it started to give me a little better sense of perspective. I decided that I was letting myself get way too wound up by the increasingly arrogant, dictatorial and capricious antics of the admin. I decided that I really needed to get a break from the place. It was burning me out.
I have left the CSB pretty much for good, (I never say never but I can't imagine why I should want to post at The Kooky, Gwen And Eddie Show.... they can have their little circle jerk to themselves as far as I'm concerned....I log in occasionally to copy some of my longer political analysis essays, posts on immigration, etc. because I'm in the proocess of putting together my own political/humor blog...no point in denying those pearls of wisdom to the world...
) Ultimately, I left the CSB for the same reason I left The Cafe Darte many moons ago....I did not approve of the way the place was being run...Gwen made it quite clear that she was Der Fuhrer, and anybody who didn't like it could go do biologically impossible things to themselves. I got fed up with her whole approach; the disingenuous to the point of being intelligence insulting rationalizations, the unbridled arrogance and imperious condescension, the passive aggressive, "who, moi?" way she had of dealing with criticism. The kind of almost to the point of insanity cluelessness that she always exhibited towards Steve as a poster, had finally started to bleed over into her behavior as the admin.
It just became too exasperating and depressing for me to deal with on a daily basis. She didn't start out this way, (some here may recall that I wrote lengthy spirited defenses of her when others had given up on her.) but somewhere along the line running that place really went to her head; she just became, (to use one of my father's expressions) "too big for her britches".....
It became pretty obvious that so long as her buddies Ed and Steve were happy, she really didn't give a damn what anybody else thought. It got to the point that she didn't even bother to pretend that she gave a damn what anybody else thought . She had deluded herself into believing that she was doing a peachy job, and that the only problem was, as she herself put it, "a handful of chronic malcontents", rather than face the reality that a large and growing number of board members were getting fed up with her behavior. She was given every opportunity to mend her ways, and it became glaringly apparent that that wasn't going to happen. (if anything, she just got worse) It got to the point that it became impossible for a rational person (even one who had genuine affection for Gwen, as I did, and frankly still do) to excuse what she was doing.
I'm sure she's been to this site....one would think that just by looking at the huge number of registered participants here that she would get a "wake up call" to the fact that it wasn't about "a handful of chronic malcontents"....but at this point she probably doesn't even care. So long as Steve and Ed are happy , she figures she's doing a bang up job....
It's really kind of ironic. It was none other than editec who led the exodus from the Cafe Darte when he became fed up with the arbitrary, capricious and dictatorial way that place was being run. Now he's a part of a dictatorship. It's kind of an Animal Farm type situation.....
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