oldr_n_wsr's alcoholic adventure

[Gob]

I am much calmer and peaceful now and want to stay that way. The obsession is gone, now I need to work on being a better person and then pass what I have found on to others similarly afflicted.

I've always found you to be a "better person" O-n-W.

[Jarlaxle]

Only problem is they won't take him as he blows a 3.7.

Oldr, I'm assuming you mean a .37 (Which would be pretty bad, even for an experienced drinker; but I've got to think that a person with a 3.7 BAC would probably be dead.)

OOOOPPPPPS!!!!
Yes 0.37. And above 0.3 is not that rare for alcoholics who have been daily drinking for many years.

The guy that nailed Liz's wrecker in an H2 was over 0.35 BAC, according to his autopsy.

[oldr_n_wsr]

Pour yerself a nice cold iced tea!

Thanks. I find I like unsweetened iced tea with a wedge of lemon the best.

I am much calmer and peaceful now and want to stay that way. The obsession is gone, now I need to work on being a better person and then pass what I have found on to others similarly afflicted.

I've always found you to be a "better person" O-n-W.

Thanks Gob. Progress is key as no one can be perfect.

[oldr_n_wsr]

Been having drinking dreams pretty much everynight for the past week or so. In the dreams I drink but then realize that I am on Antabuse and should be getting sick but I'm not getting sick. Then I have this thought that maybe my shrink buddy has been giving me placebos and only wants me to think he's giving me the real thing to scare me into not drinking.

Last nights dream I had a pint in each coat pocket (I was out in the snow) and another buddy of mine was asking me what I had in my pocket and I also had "DOTS" candy and went to show him that but they were not there. So I 'fessed up and told him I had booze and handed him ne bottle but didn't mention the other.

I talked to my sponsor and he said these dreams are normal. His theory is the brain is flushing out the booze synapses.

Still no obsession to drink. Passing thoughts here and there like when the wife asked where we should go on vacation my first thought was somewhere that was "all inclusive".

Still sleeping all the way through the night despite the dreams. I think they must be happening right before I wake up as I still remember them when I wake up.

Once again, thanks for all the support.

[dales]

Watch those dots, they're addictive and build up a tolerance.

[oldr_n_wsr]

Lately I've been doing a Skor candy bar on the way home from meetings. That English toffee covered in chocolate just hits the spot. And I don't usually go for sweets.

I know they say when first quiting one gets a craving fo sugary snacks, but it's been two months or so sinse I last consumed alcohol.

[Daisy]

Oldr did you consider the Antabuse implant?

[oldr_n_wsr]

Didn't know there was one. I'll have to check with my shrink, but I would rather be off it in the future.

[Daisy]

The implant lasts for between 8 months and a year it's not a permanent thing.

[oldr_n_wsr]

I talk to my shrink every Saturday. I'll ask him about it. Though it's not so bad taking the pill every day. Goes well with my hypertension and anti anxiety meds. Thanks for the heads up.

[oldr_n_wsr]

Got a resentment yesterday (they say the number one thing that causes relapse is resentments so I am dumping this here).

While I was trimming the forsythias, I was also trimming the hedges/bushes (I have no idea what kind they are but they grow fast and dense with a 2-3 inch oval leaf) that grow over/through my fence from the neighbor behind me's yard. He's an older gentleman and I have gotten along with them (him and his wife) and her parents who used to live two houses away on my side of the block until they passed away. So I was a bit taken aback (and slightly startled) yesterday as I was triming the hedges (on my side of the fence) when I heard someone ask "what are you doing?" I looked around my yard to see who was talking to me and he said, "over here" meaning toward the bushes. I see him peeking out from a gap where the one type of bushes end and some other type begins. And I say "how are you?". He comes back and says again "what are you doing?". So I reply that I am trimming the bushes. now I have trimmed these hedges/bushes every year for the past 28 years I have lived there with no problems He then goes on about how they are their bushes and that they like them very full and the privacy they provide. So I assure him that I am only trimming the hedges up to MY fence and straight up from there, that I am not trimming willy nilly past the fence and even if I did, my fence was installed 6 inches inside my property line so technically I could go few more inches past the fence in my trimming. He got a little flustered and in parting said, "well keep the trimming to the fence".

I don't usually get pissed off, but I did in this instance. My brain is spinning with "who the fuck does he think he is telling me not to trim HIS hedges that are growing over 12 inches into my yard. How it seemed he was threatening me if I did accidently past the fence. How my fence is installed "to code" that it is actually 6 inches inside my property line so I have a few inches past the fence that I could technically trim." How he should be thanking me for trimming HIS hedges that are overgrowing my yard rather than getting him to do it or having him hire someone to do it for him. My anger only increased as I saw him constatnly looking at me through the few gaps in the hedges.

I did entertain the thought of purposely trimming on the other side of the fence but didn't do it.

I talked to my sponsor about this and he reminded me to reflect on what my part of this exchange was and how I should check myself. That maybe the guy was having bad day and even if this was just the way he was that I should do the right thing, that I did by not trimming past the fence. That I should remember the serenity prayer and accept the things (and people) I cannot change. How I should see if I have some character defect which caused me to be pissed off when perhaps the guy was just asking me to not trim on his side. ( I do recall a similar exchange many years ago when I first moved in and everything was overgrown as the people before me did next to no yard work nor trimming. Maybe that's been in the back of my mind)

I felt much better after talking to him and feel much much better puting it down here.
Thanks to all who take the time to read this.

[Rick]

Glad you had a place to get it off yer chest.

I don't know that I would have been so tolerant...

[Rick]

BTW you may want to ask Sue, there seems to be some sort of "Adverse possesion Law" don't let this idiot bully you into giving up anything you actually have a right to do...

[oldr_n_wsr]

I should have just said, "I am trimming only to the fence", and left it at that. Any time you harbor a resentment, you are renting space in your mind to someone else that they don't pay for.

It's behind me now and next time I see him I will apologize for being snippy.

Once again I am at peace.
Thanks

[Crackpot]

I should have just said, "I am trimming only to the fence", and left it at that. Any time you harbor a resentment, you are renting space in your mind to someone else that they don't pay for.

It's behind me now and next time I see him I will apologize for being snippy.

Once again I am at peace.
Thanks

Shouldn't that be clippy?

[oldr_n_wsr]

[Gob]

Glad you had a place to get it off yer chest.

I don't know that I would have been so tolerant...

Ditto.

[oldr_n_wsr]

A member of my AA group died on friday. For most of his life he was a bar tender at the Waldorf Astoria. He didn't drink until he retired. He moved from the city to Long Island where he started drinking. He was sober 6 years. I'll miss him and his life stories.

[Gob]

I bet he had some crackers, RIP Mr Bartender.

[oldr_n_wsr]

Turns out the guy commited suicide. Put a gun against his head, pulled the trigger......

He never complained about life. He was always cheerful and (seemed) content. He had his 6th year anniversary not too long ago and was proud (and slightly amazed) of that. His grandaughter read a heartfelt tribute to his sobriety. On the outside, nothing seemed amiss. no word on whether he started drinking again

The only complaint I heard from him was that he regretted moving to LI, that he should have stayed in the city when he retired.

His wake is tonight.